Seven years ago I published The Year of Drinking Water, a pamphlet of poems, about my experience of non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma (Exeter … More
Tag: Love for Now
Probably better
A scan, with different initials. The train journey to it, biting nails; the one back pretending not to be radioactive. … More
Why aren’t you dead yet?
Jörn Cann wasn’t my friend. He was my doctor. He was famous before we even met him as the doctor … More
Curtains
The room is small, the size of a student bedsit. An enormous grey sofa takes up most of the space. … More
This isn’t happening
Don’t forget, this is inside us every day -Stephen Berg This is not happening. It happened. Past tense. One … More
Then this
Then this. We are sitting with hospital mugs of tea, in the Quiet Room. We are all leaning forward, listening … More
This is the day
This is the day we go the hospital as usual. We have banter with Jörn and Nadine while they inject … More
Sailing through
Dear Anthony Two cycles down, just six more to go. You are not looking bad, considering. The belligerent doctor who … More
Get out of the house while you can
Dear Ant So you’ve had your first chemotherapy treatment. That first night, when you came home and carried the sick … More
All you have is now
Dear Ant Isn’t it strange, how quickly you notice your passing from one world into the next? One minute … More
Walking into the light
We walked into the brunt light, towards the hospital. The air was dry, February-cold. Traffic was going about its … More
When did I get this?
One year go I celebrated with friends the publication of Love for Now, my journal-memoir of non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma, a cancer of … More
By the way, you live
Dear Anthony I’m writing to let you know what you already know in your bones, as you put it much … More
Cancer patients’ reviews of Love for Now
My memoir of cancer, Love for Now, has been reviewed by cancer patients, and former patients, under the aegis of Macmillan … More
On not being grateful for cancer
An old friend of mine wrote to me the other day, out of the blue, to tell me about … More
Life Begins With Cancer
This is the recording of my reading ‘Life Begins With Cancer’, recorded at the Greenbelt Festival on Sunday 25th August, … More
Remission anniversary seven
Today is the seventh anniversary of the day I was told I was officially in remission from cancer. The popular … More
An interview: Putting Words to Cancer
Thank you to Julia McGuinness for posting this interview with me on her Creative Connections blog. In it I discuss … More