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Fear 

after Raymond Carver

 

Fear of cancer returning
That phone call in the night
Fear of Donald Trump
Fear of what is in these sausages that I do not know about
Fear of the Hadron Collider
Something happening to my children
Fear of being asked am I writing
Fear of what other poets think
Fear of what Trump might do to the planet
Fear of writing
Fear of not writing
Falling asleep at the wheel
Fear of being found out
Fear of protesting
Fear of being snatched in the night and tortured
Fear of waking up alone
Fear of Brexit
Fear of cheese
Fear of my arteries
Fear of my bones, my lungs
Fear of the colour purple
Fear of lambs
Fear of my neighbour’s dog
Fear of letting him know I am afraid
Fear of poets
What Trump has already done to the planet
My grandfather though he is no longer here
Fear of death
Fear of dancing at parties
Fear of drinking too much and saying inappropriate things
Fear of reading the wrong poets
Fear of my baldness
Fear of shopping
Fear of Christmas
Fear of notebooks, the empty ones
Fear of large groups of teenagers
Fear of being invisible
Fear of losing my sight
Fear of losing my friends
Fear of my cancer returning
Fear of writing