You write a blog post every day since the middle of July. It goes fine. But just as you begin to feel the slightest bit exhausted and in need of a break, someone decides it is the month of the year when you have to begin blogging every day again. Just my luck.
I really don’t know what to say. Which is what I did say, actually say, when a friend asked me why I do it at all. There we were, two of us, in a cafe, with tea, actual tea, and he said ‘Why?’ And I didn’t know what to say. So I said what I always say which is that I didn’t want to disappear. I want to be found, I said. And what I didn’t say (but sometimes do say) is I do it because I am super-humanly lazy. Blogging forces me to say something, to stain the silence.
Preferably by pointing the spotlight at someone else. It’s not false modesty (or even modesty), just a small step towards the direction of trying to subvert the culture of me-me-me. I’d much rather talk about Deryn Rees-Jones, Ann Gray, or Tomas Tranströmer. Of course my poems are on here (somewhere), but it’s really not about that. It’s about them. And that infernal Book. (Don’t know when that will be back.)
Anthony Wilson 
Thank you for this post, Anthony. One cobweb post a week, every week, sometimes feels like a self-imposed burden. So this post of yours, the bloggers equivalent of a Share at an AA meeting, is infinitely liberating. Why do we do it? Because we’re lazy. I understand that instantly and totally. You give yourself a job, very publicly, one you can’t get out of. That’s the way it is. Thanks for saying it.
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Thank you John. I kept this one in my lifesaving emails folder.
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So glad to be sent your blog today – was worried not having heard from you since Mansize. Your emails nestle in my inbox with Richard Rohr and make my day and thinking richer. I’m sure Book will return – maybe when you stop waiting for him, or when he realises he can’t make it on his own, and that his annoyance with you makes him who he is. Thank you!!
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Thank you! I’m honoured to be mentioned even in the same breath as the great RR. I love the idea of nestling with him though. As ever with thanks for your support, Anthony
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Oh, Anthony! “…to stain the silence.” I’m stealing that and not shy about saying so. If arrested I will plead Guilty as charged. Lock me up and throw away the key.
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Thank you Molly! Please steal it. I stole it from Beckett I think. As ever, Anthony
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LOL…Beckett won’t mind…
Molly
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